Saturday, September 16, 2006
i wanna go mia. my eyes are watery from all those crying. i really dunno wad to do. someone told me my horoscope thing &it goes something like ask me give up. don't drag it any longer. don't do things you have no confidence. i dunno. should i really give up? can someone just clear my doubts? i have no mood to study at all. with all these problems that i have. i simlpy have no mood to study. i just wanna go to sleep &nvr wake up. i feel so lonely &i am lonely. i thought i had forgotten him. but till yesterday, i realised i did not. i stil feel miserably sad &hurt yesterday. i'm having moodswings from yesterday to now. i'm simply very tired. feeling so lost &despair. i just want to give up my everything &go mia. mia from all of you all &everything. i'm a idiot. i thought it wil be easy but people told me it's not easy &yet i don't believe &i insisted that i could do it. i could forget him. but now, i really can't .. at times, i really wonder if i'm a fool. i feel so down now. i dunno wad to do. my heart is lost. why life cannot be trouble-less? why?! i just can't say goodbye. but i have to. &i know i can. can't i? hais ..I thought it wil be easy, but it's not.
5:11 PM